Angry

Right now i am in the office, just reached here after much trouble and guess what, i received a call from the concerned person that, the Shoot is cancelled, and i will have to excuse the team for the inconvenience. WTH. I started working on this module, which has been pending for such a long time, i opened it, and figured out, that it is also completed, and done by a team member already. DUH! What a day..

So now i am thinking of what to do next, and which course to design for the Training Stream so that, i can complete my work.

I think i should go with a recap of the last 2 modules, and work my way with the existing material that i have.

Communication is the key, and i am hating it, and i don't feel like doing it at all, and i don't feel like communicating with anyone at the moment, except for communicating with myself.

Leadership

Tomorrow i am going to office after, about 3 weeks, i am feeling weird i am still on sick leaves, but now i can walk, i am going there for a Telenor Brand Film shoot, I was nominated by Organization Development Team, its going to be a 5 - 10 mins interview with a Corporate Communication Executive. they have sent us a few questions, to answer about Leadership.

The Questions are:

1. What is a good leader to you?

- A Good leader for me is someone who i can look up to, who will put efforts in making a team, who is available when i look back, who can improve me and my work, and the one who lets me do my job. I have been lucky to have such leaders in my work experience.

2. Which Leadership Qualities do you appreciate?

- Honesty, Ability to Trust the team, No Compromise on work

3. What does it take from a leader/ manager to engage you?

- Only a 5 Minute small Discussion about, My Goals, How to get there, my improvement areas, and how i can make my work better.

4. What should a leader do to motivate you to perform at your best?

- Just talk to me about my work, my performance, My Goals.

5. Why is it important that leaders have high integrity?

- If they don't have it, who is going to believe in them?

6. In general, which leadership behaviors are not suitable in order for you to perform?

- Bringing personal Biases to work, not having the integrity.

I started off this blog last night, now its the next morning, I am not in a very good mood, because i had to go to office with my husband, and he left me, assuming that i would go on the company car, while i specifically mentioned that i wanted to go with him.. DUH!!

Lucky

Today i Have had the chance of Going to Spectra Innovations, a company who manufactures Sports bars and Sports Carriers, ( i am not sure, what this product does), and i realized that God has been really kind to me, and i am working at a place like Telenor, Which is one of the best companies in Pakistan.

Anyways, Yesterday i got really lucky with my Strategic Management Course, we had to submit a case study on ACM corporation, we could not do it in time, at the last moment after the exam me and my team member tried to finish the report, as we were the only one's without a printed report, rest of the groups were doing presentations, it was not our turn to present, but report had to be submitted, at that moment i felt that i should not have neglected the task, how could i be this irresponsible that i forgot to do my report. A team member suggested that we tell the instructor that we forgot the report at home, and we will send u later, but i was reluctant in telling a Lie to Sir Fareedy, as i respect him a lot, and I have gained credibility in his class, and i could not lie to him about missing the report, i had decided that i will not lie to him, but in fact will tell him honestly that we could not do it, i was ready to let go of my 5%, and it was my Fault. How could i not complete a report, and then lie and try to get away with it. He is one of the Ideal teachers, whom i respect a lot, and telling a lie to him was like disrespecting him, and disrespecting myself, i can never think about doing this.

At the very last moment, when the last group was presenting, it was report submission time, everyone has to give their reports to the TA, and to my surprise, suddenly Sir announced in the whole class that I am not going to accept your reports, as they are not up to the mark, and you have to submit it again the next week. :O

I could not believe my ears, a sigh of relief, that i didn't have to feel embarrass in front of him nor did i have had to lie in front of him.

It was a mistake, my negligence and i can't tolerate that myself, and now i am going to complete the report, and will try to make it an excellent one. I better start reading now.

Not so Perfect

And he just said that no one is perfect - What a Freaking Cheesy line to get away with .. Just because you are incapable of understanding something, or you are incapable of realizing that you are wrong, and you are being a chauvinist - does not mean that you can Say that "No one is Perfect"and end the conversation there. And you say communication is every thing, you are the biggest supporter of Communication, is it just that, you are stuck with the word, and for you communication is just saying what YOU THINK is right?? Isn't communication something in which you have to listen and understand and then analyze and then say something? That's what all these years of training and Train the Trainers have been telling me. Getting away with it - By quoting a statement is so easy, but what about Making a statement of your OWN? Have you ever considered that? or do you even want to consider that? Shutting the other person up, by quoting another person, HA, What good are you for this Earth?
I Dare to Differ, I agree no one is perfect, i am not perfect either, and no one is.. however i would still like to give myself the luxury to think and appreciate that i Strive to be Perfect, and the Sad part is, you are no way near, no way closer to think that there is anything perfect, or you can try to be one.

A not so normal Day

I wonder why is it hard for people to stay normal? May be i am the miss fit. Why is the only question that i have for today. I don't like you being cheesy with me, nor do i like it, when you try to overhaul me with your bitterness. You don't have to give me signs that you are my friend, and you do not have to give me challenges to tell me that you are my enemy, when i do not ask for any of your jokes, please do not share them with me, when i do not ask for your anger please don't show it to me, and keep it to your self.

Raise up to the level where you can have the guts to talk to me face to face, i don't want you to send me messages and apologize for your mistakes. it doesn't matter who you are, but what matters is, what you are doing right now to express yourself that who you are.

Conceptual Blending

Theory of Cognition, according to this theory elements from diverse scenarios and vital relations tend to blend in subconcious process.

some Law's on Time ..

Parkinson's law: you will always do a tasks in the time that you have assigned to it, if you assign a year to writing an essay it will actually take you a year to write one, but if you, assign 2 weeks to it, you will be surprised that you will do it in 2 weeks.