Lessons in Life

There are some times in your life when you realize how stupid you were, what a stupid thing you said, what a stupid move you made, and what a stupid day or a stupid week or perhaps years you have lived. I am so glad today that i am left to realize that i was stupid, only if i had been more wiser i would not be experiencing this Today - the day that i am alive. There are so many great moments in my life which i have missed, which i still miss, that i should have done things, or i should not have done things, so i would have enjoyed those moments more. But i had no idea, that there is something called enjoyment, I was totally unaware of the concept. Now i know, Now i can have fun, and now i know how to live the moment.

Well today all what matters is what i have learnt from being stupid. Many of us think that i should not have done this, or should not have said that, I think all of us should learn. As it is said by the wise men that you need to learn from your Past. I could never figure that out, until now. The best way to learn is and to compare how well are you doing after being stupid is to put all your experiences in positive statements.

For Example, Instead of saying I should not have done that, i should say, i should have been more assertive, Or i should have given it a thought. I should have said No. I should have Helped her, I should have talked to her. I should have put my foot down for the right cause.

So once i put everything in positive i can compare it with my Today. Am i assertive enough? do i think before doing it now? Do i help people? Do i talk to people at the right time? Have i improved in decision making? Am i able to put my foot down for the right cause?

So all these questions will lead you towards the lessons in your life. Once you answer all these questions, you will know how far you have come, you will know how much have you improved, and how much have you learnt.

Its the positiveness in you, and your ability to bring in the positive every situation, that helps you learn. How need to let go of the bitterness, and see what you can learn from it. I am not saying you don't have to grief, You should, you can't let an emotion hold on for long, but you always need to believe in your self that this sad phase is going to get over one day, and you will get out yourself. Once you develop this mechanism you will be better able to focus on whats important rather than beating your self about you being stupid.

I'm thankful to this Self healing Gaia for giving me all the power to think, grief, be happy, be stupid and above all be Positive.

The Day which started in the evening

Its around 9 Pm, I slept the whole day, i think because i could not sleep last night, kept on watching Grey's Anatomy with Yasir. After Sehri, i slept. Yasir has to go to Multan, so he left at around 7, while i woke up to get my room cleaned up, and then woke up to attend a call from my mom.

its now 10:40 PM. i made tea for my self, i have read a Case on ACM corp and solve it, i only have a night to read it. Its always so difficult to start something, but i guess instead of wasting further time. I should get going.

The room feels so empty without him. I'm missing my Husband.

Angry

Right now i am in the office, just reached here after much trouble and guess what, i received a call from the concerned person that, the Shoot is cancelled, and i will have to excuse the team for the inconvenience. WTH. I started working on this module, which has been pending for such a long time, i opened it, and figured out, that it is also completed, and done by a team member already. DUH! What a day..

So now i am thinking of what to do next, and which course to design for the Training Stream so that, i can complete my work.

I think i should go with a recap of the last 2 modules, and work my way with the existing material that i have.

Communication is the key, and i am hating it, and i don't feel like doing it at all, and i don't feel like communicating with anyone at the moment, except for communicating with myself.

Leadership

Tomorrow i am going to office after, about 3 weeks, i am feeling weird i am still on sick leaves, but now i can walk, i am going there for a Telenor Brand Film shoot, I was nominated by Organization Development Team, its going to be a 5 - 10 mins interview with a Corporate Communication Executive. they have sent us a few questions, to answer about Leadership.

The Questions are:

1. What is a good leader to you?

- A Good leader for me is someone who i can look up to, who will put efforts in making a team, who is available when i look back, who can improve me and my work, and the one who lets me do my job. I have been lucky to have such leaders in my work experience.

2. Which Leadership Qualities do you appreciate?

- Honesty, Ability to Trust the team, No Compromise on work

3. What does it take from a leader/ manager to engage you?

- Only a 5 Minute small Discussion about, My Goals, How to get there, my improvement areas, and how i can make my work better.

4. What should a leader do to motivate you to perform at your best?

- Just talk to me about my work, my performance, My Goals.

5. Why is it important that leaders have high integrity?

- If they don't have it, who is going to believe in them?

6. In general, which leadership behaviors are not suitable in order for you to perform?

- Bringing personal Biases to work, not having the integrity.

I started off this blog last night, now its the next morning, I am not in a very good mood, because i had to go to office with my husband, and he left me, assuming that i would go on the company car, while i specifically mentioned that i wanted to go with him.. DUH!!

Lucky

Today i Have had the chance of Going to Spectra Innovations, a company who manufactures Sports bars and Sports Carriers, ( i am not sure, what this product does), and i realized that God has been really kind to me, and i am working at a place like Telenor, Which is one of the best companies in Pakistan.

Anyways, Yesterday i got really lucky with my Strategic Management Course, we had to submit a case study on ACM corporation, we could not do it in time, at the last moment after the exam me and my team member tried to finish the report, as we were the only one's without a printed report, rest of the groups were doing presentations, it was not our turn to present, but report had to be submitted, at that moment i felt that i should not have neglected the task, how could i be this irresponsible that i forgot to do my report. A team member suggested that we tell the instructor that we forgot the report at home, and we will send u later, but i was reluctant in telling a Lie to Sir Fareedy, as i respect him a lot, and I have gained credibility in his class, and i could not lie to him about missing the report, i had decided that i will not lie to him, but in fact will tell him honestly that we could not do it, i was ready to let go of my 5%, and it was my Fault. How could i not complete a report, and then lie and try to get away with it. He is one of the Ideal teachers, whom i respect a lot, and telling a lie to him was like disrespecting him, and disrespecting myself, i can never think about doing this.

At the very last moment, when the last group was presenting, it was report submission time, everyone has to give their reports to the TA, and to my surprise, suddenly Sir announced in the whole class that I am not going to accept your reports, as they are not up to the mark, and you have to submit it again the next week. :O

I could not believe my ears, a sigh of relief, that i didn't have to feel embarrass in front of him nor did i have had to lie in front of him.

It was a mistake, my negligence and i can't tolerate that myself, and now i am going to complete the report, and will try to make it an excellent one. I better start reading now.

Not so Perfect

And he just said that no one is perfect - What a Freaking Cheesy line to get away with .. Just because you are incapable of understanding something, or you are incapable of realizing that you are wrong, and you are being a chauvinist - does not mean that you can Say that "No one is Perfect"and end the conversation there. And you say communication is every thing, you are the biggest supporter of Communication, is it just that, you are stuck with the word, and for you communication is just saying what YOU THINK is right?? Isn't communication something in which you have to listen and understand and then analyze and then say something? That's what all these years of training and Train the Trainers have been telling me. Getting away with it - By quoting a statement is so easy, but what about Making a statement of your OWN? Have you ever considered that? or do you even want to consider that? Shutting the other person up, by quoting another person, HA, What good are you for this Earth?
I Dare to Differ, I agree no one is perfect, i am not perfect either, and no one is.. however i would still like to give myself the luxury to think and appreciate that i Strive to be Perfect, and the Sad part is, you are no way near, no way closer to think that there is anything perfect, or you can try to be one.

A not so normal Day

I wonder why is it hard for people to stay normal? May be i am the miss fit. Why is the only question that i have for today. I don't like you being cheesy with me, nor do i like it, when you try to overhaul me with your bitterness. You don't have to give me signs that you are my friend, and you do not have to give me challenges to tell me that you are my enemy, when i do not ask for any of your jokes, please do not share them with me, when i do not ask for your anger please don't show it to me, and keep it to your self.

Raise up to the level where you can have the guts to talk to me face to face, i don't want you to send me messages and apologize for your mistakes. it doesn't matter who you are, but what matters is, what you are doing right now to express yourself that who you are.